Sunday, May 4, 2014
Planning, Figuring Life Out
Planning: I would love to know the future. Doug's boss is running for congress and the election is at the end of this month. Win or lose, the firm is going to be shaken up by this election, and we don't know if Doug will get to stay with this firm. Will his boss retire? Will there be enough clients for Doug to earn his salary? Will Doug get taken off salary? Will he just need to find another place to work? None of this is very fun to worry about, but it impacts everything. Will we have to move out of our wonderful home in the next little while? Where? What is the best thing for us? We pray and talk, and wonder, and worry. No answers for the time being. I can't even enjoy planning for the summer because I worry about employment. So there that is.
Figuring Life Out: I recognize that having 4 kids seven and under means life will be tricky. I recognize that my lack of sleep impacts my decision making. I acknowledge that losing that scheduled, perfect 2-hour window of work time every day (because Cason is an unpredictable napper) impacts my day. But I still want to be Super Tara. I want to prepare well for my teaching--doing all the readings, and reading all the discussion board posts--and serve instructors well as a teaching group leader. I want to cook great meals. I want to read to my kids every day and help Lucy learn how to read, and help Brooklyn get potty trained. I want to do my calling well at church (I'm in the primary presidency, and I'm over scouting, which means I should be going to some of the scouting activities.) I'd like to practice the piano and flute. I would like to make time to scrub my blinds and organize the things in our house for a garage sale. I'd like to devote more time to running. And I want to have a GREAT time with every member of my family every day. But I don't have the time. So I've prioritized survival and happiness in these ways:
Survival:
I've kept us all fed, and clothing and shelter is covered.
Happiness:
I've tidied the house every day (because I feel distracted and frustrated when my house is a disaster).
I've gone on plenty of outings with my kiddos, and we have enjoyed many stroller rides and a few picnics--more on the horizon with the weather improving.
I've read fun books.
We've let the kids pick fun things to do with us.
Doug and I have gone on some dates--not enough!
The baby keeps waking up and needing to be soothed, so I am done for tonight:).
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4 comments:
I love your ambition : ) Good luck with the next month, hope the unpredictable turns out well.
I hear you about knowing the future, but at the same time I'm glad I don't because it keeps more focused on NOW. You got a great list, and as long as you keep your main focus on the best things, all else will fall into place and you will be able to get a lot of the other stuff done, too. That's my big idea for this month; I'm writing my priorities and setting myself up with a schedule. I used to have one and life was smoother and I accomplished more when I had one. Hopefully it is again soon.
When you figure this all out let me know the secret... I may need to write down my list of daily desires too. And until then just know you have one sis believing you're super Tara!! You are such an incredible person, mom, goal setter/and than keeper, and the stuff you do for work amazes me you're totally awesome :-)
I LOVE this post and totally relate!!
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