Bangs and Glasses, Borrowing Trouble

I've posted pictures of my hair at different stages, and Lucy is at the top, posing as the embodiment of fabulous hair, despite troubles (her hair is uneven in the back and I don't have the heart to do any chopping yet.) Here is my honest opinion as we launch into spring changes:

Bangs rarely do people any favors. I am scarred by having worn bangs for the first 19 years of my life. Every time I decided to grow them out, someone talked me out of it, making me think I must have a weird head if people thought I ought to hide a third of it. That's the problem with bangs--they hide the face! I was watching a show on the treadmill yesterday and it was so cute, but I was bugged that I couldn't see the mom's face because her bangs literally covered everything down to her eyes. Let me see your beautiful faces, women. No need to hide that loveliness! If women do wear bangs, I think they look better shorter, and bushy bangs are the worst.

And glasses: they also hide the face. People can look beautiful with glasses, but they always look better without them. I know some people have to wear glasses all the time for various reasons, and I feel sad for them. I'm blind as a bat, but I can wear contacts during the day and it is such a relief not to have limited vision. Seriously, glasses make it so you can't completely see the world. If I had the money, I'd consider laser surgery, but I love disposable lenses. They're a happy alternative.

Now I've been thinking about what I may do to change my look. I always have straight hair, parted on the side or in a pony tail, and even though I have "practiced" making my hair wavy with a curling iron, I am deficient. I just can't do it! I haven't practiced hairstyles since 5th grade, and I think it's funny to start back up at 29, but I'm just not ready to throw the towel in on trying to look good. I wish I had a coach. A really flattering, helpful coach.

I've considered getting a really loose perm just so I can have body, and I know the whole wide world looks down on perms, but my hair is straight. And I don't know how to do it. Advice? Rogaine, perhaps? Or extensions? Anything else? I can't cut it because I have a hunch that shorter hair makes me look older. (The picture of me with short hair is an accidentally good one. I couldn't see it well close up as I browsed through pictures, and it looks a lot better than my hair actually looks short.)

I know I'm being silly and fluffy. But my daughter is sick and coughing all night (AGAIN!) and I'm not getting enough sleep, and my husband's grandma's husband passes away and I blew off an online meeting that day and coordinate having houseguests, and don't have the energy to clean my house the way I want to... I need to direct my attention elsewhere. Sometimes fluff is where it's at. And escapist reading. And ice cream.

Oh, and I'm borrowing trouble. I'm really worrying about how I'm actually going to become a worse mother than I already am when I begin teaching on April 20th. I know that this teaching opportunity is a gift from my Father in Heaven, but I also worry about devoting even less time to raising my kids. When I'm focused on something, it's hard to pull out of it. I plan on only working on my class when Lucy is sleeping (which means that Isaac will have to self-entertain or watch a show while I work during Lucy's nap #1. They'll both be asleep during her nap #2). I just hope that works out. And I'm terrified of trying to teach a class, raise my kids well, and deal with morning sickness. Again, I'm borrowing trouble. I'm not pregnant. And I just need to relax and get some more sleep for a fresher perspective.